Some {random, unconnected} thoughts on the whole thing

I've had all sorts of thoughts running through my head since finding out we were having twins.  Here are a random sampling for your reading pleasure.
  • First: thank you everyone for your sweet comments of congratulations and support.  I'm glad that so many of you think I'll do great with five kids 5 and under because, believe me, I have my doubts!  I am comforted knowing that this is the Lord's will, and with Him I can do anything.
  • As far as how I'm doing, I'm doing fantastic.  Exhausted, but fantastic.  I don't (knock on wood) get morning sickness, {you can hate me if you want to} so I haven't had that to deal with, but my low back likes to complain, and I've been getting lightheaded more often, which I can only guess is attributed to the pregnancy, as well as more frequent headaches.  But overall, I have little to complain about.
  • I had at least 3 or 4 different people comment to me the other day at Fred Meyer about how I had my hands full (with three).  I just laughed to myself and thought "Little you know!"  I'm not so sure how shopping with 5 is going to go.  My guess is it won't.  I'm going to have to do it in the evening or on the weekend when Tom can be home with at least most of the kids.  The only thing I can think is if we went while Ella was in school, Rico could walk, Louie would sit in the seat in the cart, one baby could be in a car seat in the main basket compartment and the other would have to be carried in the baby bjorn.  But that doesn't leave much (any) room for groceries.  So I guess we'll see.  
  • I am already starting to show.  I've only gained 6-7 lbs (I'm supposed to put on 24 lbs by 24 weeks!) which has been holding steady for a couple of weeks, but a pound or two of that may have been because my exercise has gone way down and my sugar intake has gone up. :)  But I can no longer button my pants, which makes things all sorts of exciting.  I got a couple of BellaBands to help out in that department, and I'm liking, but not loving, them.  
  • I've also been doing some research into the whole twin thing.  I ordered this book from Amazon, and it just got here today, as well as this one which I have not read (despite having three kids already). In the past I've been happy to feed on demand and just work out our own schedule, but these two will need to be coordinated if I want to keep even a sliver of my quickly departing sanity. 
  • Unless Tom gets a job a significant distance from here, we will likely be staying in our current home, which is going to be crowded.  I thought that when I thought we were adding one baby.  But selling right now would require a significant chunk of money or a short sale, neither of which sound attractive (or possible).  And thanks to our neighborhood "laws," we can't rent out our house. 
  • When I first was thinking about "things we'll need to get," there wasn't much on my list.  But it's growing.  We'll need 2 infant car seats (matching, of course), since we threw out the one that we had with the other kids (I got it used when I had Ella, and did not love it), a 2nd crib, possibly a 2nd bassinet (I love having new babies in my room until they've figured out the whole night is for sleeping bit), potentially some new clothes (if they are the same gender), more pacifiers (Caroline is a pro at losing them) and more.
  • But getting a new crib means I need bedding.  When we set up Ella's crib, we went to Babies R Us to find a crib set we liked and struck out.  They were either too girly, too ugly, or too expensive.  I wanted one that I could use for boys or girls, and something fairly plain.  No such luck.  So my angel mother agreed to make the bumper and skirt.  We found a green toile that I loved and had to go to every single Joann's in the area to find enough fabric, paired it with a nice off white, and some ribbon and we were good.  The bumper ties to the crib with an interchangeable ribbon that gets threaded through button holes on the bumper (my own invention).  This allows for some versatility and personality.  Ella had pink and green, Rico was blue and green, and Lou is purple and green.  (The green is permanent, only the secondary color changes.)  My mom even made matching quilts and pillows for each child.  And I LOVE it.  But I'm not sure we could duplicate it since we bought out all of the green fabric we could find.  So that means, either we make/buy a new one that doesn't match (lame!) or we make/buy two new ones that do (also lame). 
  • I don't know if you've heard about Vanishing Twin Syndrome, but naturally, I had to research it and freak myself out.  There isn't much you can do to avoid it, and the causes are usually unknown, but the whole idea is so sad.  I just hope that's not a trial the Lord feels like I need, because really?  it's taken me long enough to get used to the idea of twins, that to reprogram and grieve at the same time would not be so fun.  I did get a kick out of this website, though.


How do you like your toast(er)?

When it comes to toasters, there are a couple different categories people fall into.  Either you are a toaster person, or a toaster oven person.  Either you are a toaster on the counter person, or a toaster in the cupboard person.

As for me, I have always been a toaster oven on the counter kind of girl.  Toasters seen useless to me; they only do one thing.  Whereas a toaster oven, well, I won't even begin to enumerate the reasons for the obvious superiority.

But it has always lived on the counter.  Easily accessible, conveniently within reach.

And always taking up precious space.

I grew up as blender on the counter person, too, but since marriage have kept mine happily tucked away in a cupboard.  But I got a new one, um, six months ago, and it was still on the counter.  Along with the new (to me- four months ago) bigger George Foreman.  And they were starting to annoy.

So yesterday I took matters into my own hands and reorganized the cupboard.  I moved a couple things, got rid of a couple things, and made room for not only the George Foreman, but also the blender and the toaster oven.

And I'm in love.

It's still easily accessible.  It requires a little more advance planning (like 5 seconds), but the wide open counter more than makes up for any inconvenience.

I'm not sure Tom is convinced, so it might not last, but I have definitely seen the light.

What about you?  Where do you fall?

*I am planning a 'thoughts-on-this-pregnancy-thus-far' post in the not to distant future, but it hasn't come together the way I want just yet.  So be patient.  And thanks for all your kind words of congratulations and support!


She called it.

We told the kids we were expecting Saturday morning.  We were planning on telling our parents over the weekend, and figured we should inform the kids first.

Ella promptly wanted to know if there were two babies in my tummy. 

"No," I reassured her.  "It's very unlikely that there are two babies in my tummy."

"But there could be," she countered.

"Yes," I admitted.  "It's possible.  But very, very unlikely."

Unconvinced, she continued to assert that there could be two babies in my tummy, and Tuesday morning she drew this picture.

Followed my this one.

And this one.

And we just laughed, because, really?  I'm not having twins.  They don't run in my family.  It's just not going to happen.

Tuesday (shortly after the picture drawing,) I had an ultrasound to verify the due date, etc. and make sure everything looked good.  As the tech was getting set up, I jokingly said, "My daughter is convinced there are two babies in my tummy, so if you could just reassure me that there's just one, that would be great."

Totally straight-faced, she replied, "It's twins."

I looked from her face, to the screen, and back to her face.  "Are you joking?"

"Nope, it's twins," she reaffirmed.

I guess we should have listened.

And for those curious ones, I'm due November 10th.


The flip side

Everyone can tell you the benefits of weight loss.  They are splashed all over TV, magazines, everywhere you turn--ad nauseaum.

"You'll look better.  You'll feel better.  You'll sleep better.  You'll have more energyLess health problemsMore friends.  You'll live longer.  Yada, yada, yada. The list is seemingly endless.

But few will tell you the other side of the story.

Having been there, done that, let me share with you a little of the dark side of weight loss.

You'll be cold.  Now I've always been colder than the average person.  Even when pregnant (when most people complain of being hot ALL. THE. TIME.) I was still chilly more often than not.  But now?  I'm FREEZING constantly.  At one point I was wearing 2-3 layers (including long underwear and socks) to bed, and still needed an extra blanket, on top of my extra blanket.  Now that's it's warmed up a bit it's not as bad, but I'm still colder than I've ever been on a regular basis.

Your clothes will not fit.  While you may see this as a bonus, that's only good if you can afford to go out and acquire a whole new wardrobe.  And beyond that, have the time to go shopping without three little helpers.

You'll have major knee pain.  Maybe this one is just me, but I'm a side sleeper.  And until recently, my knees were fine with that.  But then I got rid of the extra padding between my legs, and pretty soon I couldn't sleep because my knees were knocking together and causing large amounts of pain.  I now require a pillow.

You'll need to resize your wedding ring.  I've already lost one ring (NOT my wedding ring) because it just plain fell off and I didn't notice.  So far I've gotten away with not spending the $75-80 it's going to cost because my band is slightly smaller than my solitaire, but it spins like nobody's business.

Your skin does not shrink at the same rate you do.  This is especially noticeable in certain areas where fat accumulation is not completely a bad thing.  If you know what I mean.  Because that seems to be one area where you will lose the most.  And that leads to an excessive amount of "drape" which is not desirable.  Or attractive.

In short, it's not all it's cracked up to be.  It's just not for me, and I've decided that instead of trying to maintain my current healthy weight, I'd rather turn around and gain 35-45 pounds in the next seven or so months and reassess from there.

I'll let you know how it goes.


Quarter One!


I'm not going to lie, my reading has been meager this quarter, but I'm okay with that.

Scoring system review: The first number is my totally subjective preference rating, the higher, the better (out of 5). Next is the cleanliness rating, including language, violence, sensuality, etc. 0=squeaky clean, 5=PG13. The last number is recommended age level in my opinion: 2=elementary 3=Jr. High, 4=High school, 5=adult.

The Girl Who Could Fly, by Victoria Forester: 3.1.3
Read this for book club.  Liked but not loved it.
Emmy and the Incredible Shrinking Rat, by Lynne Jonell: 5.1.3
Excellent, hilarious, unexpected.

Enthusiasm, by Polly Shulman: 5.2.4 
I am very enthusiastic about this book.  I loved it! 
Are These My Basoomas I See Before Me? Final Confessions of Georgia Nicolson, by Louise Rennison: 4.4.4 
Hilarious! Like laughing-until-you're-crying funny.  If raunchy humor bothers you, this is not the series for you.   
Sun and Moon, Ice and Snow, by Jessica Day George: 5.0.3 
So beautifully written.  I love Jessica Day George.

The Everafter, by Amy Huntley: 4.4.4 
Beautiful and sad.  But happy.  
The No. 1 Ladies' Detective Agency, by Alexander McCall Smith: 5.3.5 
Great book. I should read the next one.
The Green Glass Sea, by Ellen Klages: 5.0.3 
Sobbed.  Loved it.  Different viewpoint on a time period I've read a lot about. 


If you recall, I made some resolutions and one of them was to hold myself accountable for them, by giving quarterly updates here. I think I'll give myself a totally subjective rating between 1 and 10, with 10 being perfection.

To continue being more healthy: 8
I've done great, especially with the motivation of the health competition that ended three weeks ago.  But since then, I've been less than great.  It's hard to be motivated when I'm not accountable to a large group on a weekly basis.  I haven't been horrible; there's just room for improvement.

To better study my scriptures: 7
I have been doing much better at this.  I've gone through several methods, from writing something down each time I read, to reading with a pencil to mark meaningful passages, to just straight focused reading.  There are benefits to each, and I like changing it up occasionally.

To be more patient with my children: 5

I'd like to say I'm aceing this one, but it's a hard one to measure, and there are times every. single. day. when I can and should do better.